You are free: Right now!

(Unedited from the pages of the TTC notebook, capitalizations, aside notes and all, 1997, Bangalore Ashram, India)

Ashtavakra 5

Your mind is a photographic sheet, taking pictures of events. But events are not there.

Swim backwards in the current. When you swim in the direction of the water, you go faster. When you swim backwards, however, is when you realise the force of "happening". Could you hold on to anything? Couldn't this be a dream? Events move but they give an impression of being permanent.

Where is this Universe? This life? What are you hanging on to?

Note on the side: Experience: When a particular relationship ended, I was devastated. I was trying to hold on to the feeling of being loved. Now, when I look back, the feverishness has passed, so has the need. It's now just an event which is past.

You are unable to perceive things right now when you are thinking about the past and future. Everyone will see different things in the same room because the mind is full of past pictures. THE WORLD IS IN YOUR MEMORY.

The mind has become like a film that has been exposed multiple times, so it does not mean anything anymore. The film is stuck, but you are exposing it over and over again. WAKE UP, IT'S FINISHED, IT'S NOT RIGHT NOW.

Rajju Sarpavat: (A rope looks like a snake) The very events that look like botherations, become a game, temporary, non-existent.
Observe your reactions when buttons are pushed.

Every event can become a play of celebration. Walk, play, eat blissfully, knoeing all these events are temporary. Observe your sensations and they change, flip over.

Deep inside, a sensation that causes pain flips over and causes immense joy when observed. You ARE free RIGHT NOW! Wake up and see your infinite Self. You are the witness of events. Even impressions do not stay too long. You are complete right now. By knowledge, we only remove ignorance. It's a game where the one who loses wins everything.

Baudhdha bhikhkhoos: (Buddhist Monks) You are total, you are full, you have everything you need. I am, that is what you are.

Everything will come to you, just let go. Sadhana is a process of opening the fist. There is no two, everyone is your own reflection.

You can ave preferences. You are born free, you are not doing ANYTHING. Actions happen according to the body and it's nature. In the body-mind complex, actions are built in. You are, in fact, untouched, removed - peaceful. YOU ARE PEACE.

You realise this when you drop your superimpositions and let go. "I am the living consciousness in this body". Right now, cut the past. Move through life like a white cloud through nature, untouched.

Stick on to this nature of yours to be "right". "Niranjan" (the unstained one) does not stick to anything. Untouched, unstained. You are impossible to stain. There is no power on earth that can pull you down.

You are not the body, you are a glow, the consciousness, energy. Your inertia disappears. YOU ARE PURE.